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  • Writer's pictureFati Haruna

Ode to Me

I've had many positive female role models in my life, from my own wonderful mother, to my wise female cousins, to friends I've had that I was able to lean on -whether they are still in my life or not, and to others I've met in a professional setting. However, I wish that I had an older version of myself telling me what choices to make and not make. In my very first blog post, I touched on this topic, where I wish I knew more, especially when it came to school, opportunities, connections and experiences. Theres so much I did not know about myself, and so much that I am actually still learning. I know that I am a free spirit, I've always been that way. I know that I love adventure, and I also speak my mind (ALOT, hence my blog). But back then I couldn't figure out a direction, because everywhere I turned always led me into a dark tunnel where I couldn't even see my own hands in front of me. I guess thats what life is, but it does help to have some type of direction. I was dealing with mental health issues that I really didn't understand at the time, and i also did not want to take the time to navigate it either.

26 year old me, is still 18 year old me. The main difference between then and now is that I've put in a lot of work into myself. I stopped ignoring and suppressing, and decided to continue to work on myself. Life has certainly toughened me, made me more wise, made me less naïve, and also allowed me to drop my façade and live in my full authenticity. 8 years later, and I'm still not where I would like to be, but I do appreciate my growth thus far. I still have a lot of learning to do, but this time I want to remain unapologetic and stay true to myself, my character, and my morals. This is a letter to me, and maybe anyone else that has similar feelings of internal growth. Let go of the past and keep pushing toward a brighter future, there's always going to be a "beginning" of any story or any path you choose to walk.


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